Being a trickster god isn't really that bad. I'm actually quite likeable, I think! You like me.
[ There's an almost questioning lilt to the way he says that last sentence. He's still playing with the idea that she could really like him, and it feels strange. ]
But it's worse than that, I'm supposed to be evil. And that's... really dumb and everyone will hate me for a reason this time and it'll be awful.
Well, sure, [she agrees easily, barely stopping to acknowledge the point. It's pretty obvious to Willow that she likes him, however ill-advised that is.
But the rest of this is really concerning to her, and she bites at her lower lip briefly before continuing, eyes openly worried.] But I don't want you to be evil, [she complains.] That complicates liking you. I'm all for the not evil.
I think it so, truly. I would sooner cease to be than turn into that, but not even that would be something I could accomplish alone.
[ A pause that seems very much like hesitation draws the moment out a bit longer. It's very precisely calculated. ]
Gods are tales told, so it's not so wrong to change a line or two, is it? To sort through the deck of possibilities and pick out the one that's just a little different?
[The calculation is unnecessary, because truthfully, she was sold the second she realized he was meant to be evil and was trying to find a way to escape his fate. That was something Willow could at least empathize with. She was determined not to fall into the trap of being evil again herself, and anything she could do to keep another force of good in the world was completely worthwhile to her. He could've been a total stranger and she'd have tried to help, but he's not a stranger, and that makes her doubly convinced.
Her eyes are open and clear with earnest worry.] No, of course not, [she agrees.] You shouldn't be forced to be anything, Loki. What do you need me to do?
[He'd just said he couldn't accomplish it alone, that humans had free will and they could pull off a trick. Willow's not stupid. She knows how powerful she is and she's used to being back up. She's aching to be back up, honestly.]
Lots? [ Right then, Loki decides he can't try to puzzle his way through this anymore. He lets out a slow, shaky breath as he seems to be trying to regather his thoughts. When he does, he seems to have deflated somewhat as if he's managed to wear himself out. There's a faint trembling to his hand as he brings it up to rub over his face in a tired gesture, and then he's smiling again. It's a fragile expression, but genuine. ]
It's no weekend project, rather a complicated ritual working. Altering reality always is without a special knack for it. [ Briefly, there's an unusual intentness in his gaze as if he's scrutinizing the image of her for something in particular, but it's quickly gone. ]
We'd be channeling through what I could be versus what I am. It's a lot of weight, and you'll be getting your hands dirty with the very stuff a god like me is made of. [ Unfathomable, self-destructive chaos, basically. He omits that part, though he imagines she has an idea just on an academic basis alone. ]
I can work with you through the technical parts, but it'd be your will and power that makes it function.
[Conversely, as nervous as Willow is about doing what he needs her to do, she's relieved to see him finally showing some of the fragility she's sure he's feeling. This isn't just a life-altering issue, it's a destiny-altering one, and she's familiar enough with those from supporting Buffy for the past seven years to understand the difference it makes. He has to be feeling pretty vulnerable and isolated right now. He just has to be.
But Willow knows him well enough at this point to understand that he wouldn't want to display it. That he's letting her see even a glimpse here is encouraging as an indication that he must be growing to trust her. Willow has such a short selection of friends here that it means a lot to her to have one of the few demonstrate that, even if they were thrown together by circumstance and not by choice. It means that she feels obligated to live up to his request, no matter how intimidating she finds it.]
I've changed destinies before, [she admits after a moment, reluctant to reveal the depth of her power but serious and humble when she does it.] The Slayer that I mentioned? I Called to power all of the girls that could be the Slayer but weren't. The Potentials. I didn't know if I could do it but I-- I did.
If you can show me what to do... [She takes a deep breath, recognizing this as the moment of commitment.] I'll need some time to get ready, make sure I can connect with the magics here like I need to. But I'll try.
You-- You shouldn't have to live like that. [And it's really that simple to her.]
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[ There's an almost questioning lilt to the way he says that last sentence. He's still playing with the idea that she could really like him, and it feels strange. ]
But it's worse than that, I'm supposed to be evil. And that's... really dumb and everyone will hate me for a reason this time and it'll be awful.
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But the rest of this is really concerning to her, and she bites at her lower lip briefly before continuing, eyes openly worried.] But I don't want you to be evil, [she complains.] That complicates liking you. I'm all for the not evil.
And it's-- it's so unfair to you.
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[ A pause that seems very much like hesitation draws the moment out a bit longer. It's very precisely calculated. ]
Gods are tales told, so it's not so wrong to change a line or two, is it? To sort through the deck of possibilities and pick out the one that's just a little different?
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Her eyes are open and clear with earnest worry.] No, of course not, [she agrees.] You shouldn't be forced to be anything, Loki. What do you need me to do?
[He'd just said he couldn't accomplish it alone, that humans had free will and they could pull off a trick. Willow's not stupid. She knows how powerful she is and she's used to being back up. She's aching to be back up, honestly.]
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It's no weekend project, rather a complicated ritual working. Altering reality always is without a special knack for it. [ Briefly, there's an unusual intentness in his gaze as if he's scrutinizing the image of her for something in particular, but it's quickly gone. ]
We'd be channeling through what I could be versus what I am. It's a lot of weight, and you'll be getting your hands dirty with the very stuff a god like me is made of. [ Unfathomable, self-destructive chaos, basically. He omits that part, though he imagines she has an idea just on an academic basis alone. ]
I can work with you through the technical parts, but it'd be your will and power that makes it function.
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But Willow knows him well enough at this point to understand that he wouldn't want to display it. That he's letting her see even a glimpse here is encouraging as an indication that he must be growing to trust her. Willow has such a short selection of friends here that it means a lot to her to have one of the few demonstrate that, even if they were thrown together by circumstance and not by choice. It means that she feels obligated to live up to his request, no matter how intimidating she finds it.]
I've changed destinies before, [she admits after a moment, reluctant to reveal the depth of her power but serious and humble when she does it.] The Slayer that I mentioned? I Called to power all of the girls that could be the Slayer but weren't. The Potentials. I didn't know if I could do it but I-- I did.
If you can show me what to do... [She takes a deep breath, recognizing this as the moment of commitment.] I'll need some time to get ready, make sure I can connect with the magics here like I need to. But I'll try.
You-- You shouldn't have to live like that. [And it's really that simple to her.]